Every day, I like to rank my depression on a scale of one to ten. It probably isn't healthy, but it's what I do. In a new section on my blog's sidebar, I'm going to share with you my daily number (though I may have to take it down if people start to worry about me). To avoid confusion, let me give you a breakdown about what the numbers mean:
1-3: Minimal - These are my good days. They generally only pop up if I've made some sort of progress on my job search or if something, arguably, good has happened to me that day. These days are few and far between.
4-6: Bearable - This is probably the average. Obviously nothing good has happened in a while, but I haven't had time to dwell on things. I'm bummed out, but it's nothing I can't ignore.
7-8: Unbearable - These happen more than I'd like to admit. I can get pushed into one of these days having a slow day at work, watching something good happen to someone else, not being able to work out, or any number of other things.
9-10: Crippling - These are bad days. Usually, they're triggered by some sort of major event - being passed up for a job, being out of law school for two years, not having enough money for something, my impending birthday, etc. But, unfortunately, sometimes they just pop up out of nowhere.
Now that you know what the numbers mean, you can fully appreciate how depressed I am on any given day. You're welcome.
[Believe it or not, I used to be an optimist. Seriously.]